I am in the state of : I am sick of it, I don't know what should I do. Serba salah bahasa gampangnya. My mommy told me that I should take care of this wedding stuffs by myself (since she did the same thing when she prepared her wedding). But when I arrange it, she reject almost all my proposal. Though she agree about it in the end, we always have a conflict first. I am tired of being judged as a girl who want to have a sophisticated wedding without recognizing her parents' ability. I am not like that, I am open to discussion. But please, don't judge me first. Please do not say 'no' before I explain it. Please treat me as an adult, not a daddy's little girl who beg for a toy. 

Now, I don't care, just do whatever you want to do, mom. Decide the things that you think the best. I'll just shut up. Manut bahasa jawanya. I don't want to mention any wedding stuff (lho kok malah jadi mutung critanya).

Maybe this problem is not that bad, I know my parents is not that cruel. Maybe this is just not the right time since I have pretty much load in the office, too many deadlines for myself (supervisor hunting, scholarship & summer course application). I got my period as well, perfect to create unnecessary drama. 

Then I should stop complicating my life.. Make it easy, bye bye my dream wedding. 

Wedding is just a beginning dear (self puk puk).

Chao,

Bride to be

Halo2... *sambil bersihin debu*

Gak kerasa udah 2 bulan sejak nulis post terakhir. Berarti tinggal 7 bulan 2 minggu menuju hari H :)

As usual, saya mau nulis update wedding preparation kami. Here we go :

• Kain Kebaya : Alhamdulillah, 2 minggu yang lalu saya ama ibu udah belanja kain kebaya di Garden, Solo. Kita dapet kebaya buat akad, seragam ortu, seragam keluarga, seragam among tamu, seragam bridesmaid. Totalnya ada 55 potong (bangkrut seketika). Tapi lega banget, bisa move on ke item yang lain. Oiya, saya dapet tile prancis buat akad, makasih ibuu :*

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